It was last year.

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No one cares no one you know what does it mean? No one will never ever cares about you, about what you're doing what you're thinking I don't even know what to write I am so lost in no where just pretending that I'm so happy with my life smiling at every single person, anything. I'm lost even I can't express myself, my feelings. I'm lost in the world of strong people, successful ones. I'm nothing but someone who can eat, sleep, go to school, study! nothing more and nothing less. Being like this suck as hell but I can't help it,  I don't exist I am nothing. Getting judged by people is the worst thing that you can imagine it's like they're blaming you for who you are, for what you do, what your love, they don't let you live your life the way you wanted to. you just spend all your time thinking what should I say how should I react but no that is not you! you are faking a person that you wanted to be "perfect" but even after doing that after faking everything you still get judged. And that's what you're going through all your life..
 just a simple word can tear you down and another simple one can make you look up.

I I wrote this last year. I wasn't feeling good at all I thought, I just should die, I hated life. But that was a year ago and now I can definitely say that I have changed I'm so happy with my life and I am so  grateful for the things that I have right now. I am still looking forward to the future and I am living my present! I'm not thinking about the past and most of all I am happy.  so I may say Thank You 2017 thank you my 16 year. I thank myself! honestly I made this I got up! not just keep going down. I'm standing so proud of what I did, proud of who I am. You should too!

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  1. I am very happy to hear that you are feeling better about life. Never forget the feelings of gratefulness.

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    1. Yes! life is hard but we'll find a way my dear.

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  2. I am so glad you are no longer in that dark place. Our hard time make us strong. So much support your way.

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    1. thank you! I hope you're having a great day.

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  3. Thank you for having the courage to share this with the world. It can be quite scary to allow yourself to be so vulnerable. It's great to read the difference a year can make! Stay strong!

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    1. Actually thank you for taking the time to comment!

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  4. What a powerful post! Thanks for sharing!

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  5. Life is filled with transitions and I'm happy you are in a better place. There is a song called "Better Days" and some of the words are "you can't get to those better days unless you make it through the night." Keep moving forward.

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    1. thank you! I will hear this song for sure. it's been all said you are not living if you're noy regretting.

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  6. It's always nice to be able to look back once in a while to see how you have come. I'm glad you have come so far!

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  7. These lines "Just a simple word can tear you down and another simple one can make you look up. " - Brilliant. I relate to this so much!
    When you write something like this, people empathize, but no one appreciates the writing, I get that a lot too. So, here I'm saying, you write poetically! :)

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  8. life has its ups and downs. I am glad you took the right decision to keep on fighting to find your own happiness! good joB!

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